9 months

As the light contractions of early labour tease me in the ‘wee smas’ of this morn, I decided to write a little blurb on being pregnant:-).

I’ve always had it pretty easy in the pregnancy department: no morning sickness, minimal stretch marks, nice neat ‘bumps’ (as they call our rounded bellies here in the UK). Perhaps that’s why I’m pregnant again- I remember the easy bits.

However, as we women get bigger, I think that having a good self-esteem becomes more difficult. I know that such is the case for me, at least. I feel big, ungraceful, and strangely vulnerable– both physically and emotionally.

About a month ago, during one such moment of feeling unattractive after being teasingly called a ‘fatty’, God blessed me with a little boost to my spirits. I discovered that some men actually find a pregnant woman’s body to be very attractive. My good friend told me that her husband thought that a woman was actually at her loveliest when pregnant. John too confirmed that he found pregnant curves quite wonderful. I’d heard this before, but thought it was just him trying to make me feel better. Somehow it gave me a boost to hear that it wasn’t just me pregnant that he found lovely, but pregnant women in general. That same week, the aforesaid friend’s brother also paid me a nice complement. So this really helped me through the last month and a half. When I began to feel like all my feminine appeal had gone out the window, I’d think about these things.

Mind you, now my belly feels like it’s ready to burst. Though I hate it when people use the phrase ‘ready to pop’, sometimes that’s just how I feel:-). So, though there is always a bit of nervousness involving the unknowns of labour (even with two births under my belt), I’m welcoming these little contractions that hint at something new and exciting to come.

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